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A legendary songstress in the making dies…


It is an all too frequent tale.  Young person makes it big.  Young person falls into the glitz and glamour.  Young person falls into the feel good and the partying of it all.  Young person takes too many drugs, smokes too many cigarettes, drinks too much.  Young person destroys their body, their career and finally loses their life.  A surprising number of them at the age of 27.  It is a tragic fairy tale.  The tragedy of Hollywood and the music business

Today mourners are gathered outside the London home of one Amy Winehouse,  where the 27 year old singer was found dead on Saturday to pay their final respects to the would have been legendary, Ms. Amy Winehouse.  Now granted, Amy was tabloid fodder for years with her drug and alcohol addictions and her wild unpredictable behavior. But what people tend to forget is that she was a tremendously talented woman.  Despite her personal suffering and pain Amy sang out beautifully.  Her voice was reminiscent of the singers from the big band era.  Such a beautiful and clear voice with such heart and soulfulness.  Had she found a way out of the pit of her addictions she could very well have been the next lifetime achievement winning Diva.

It is a shame the way that the business destroys lives.  It has the potential to make someone very happy.  To give them fame and fortune but alas that fame and fortune more often than not turns to addictions, erratic behavior and crime.  Hell, even our beloved Winona Ryder was caught shoplifting.

So why do we want it so bad?  What is it in us that makes us long for the attention and approval of the entire world when really all we need is a few good friends and the approval of ourselves?  What indeed….

Fair thee well, Amy Winehouse.  May you rest in peace and may you find that love and acceptance you so longed for in your next life.  You were an incredible talent and we will miss you.


Music of my youth


Right now I am sitting in the living room as a grown woman.  A wife, a mother, a homeowner, a pet owner, a fulltime employee working towards making the world a safer place for children.  As grown up and responsible as I am I can’t help but long for the reckless abandon of my youth.  My husband put on the CD No Code by Pearl Jam.  Then he proceeded to ask me to go to the store (in the middle of our Naked Sunday) while he stays home (after I have taken a muscle relaxer for chronic pain)…..I want to go back!

I want to go back to the days when this CD was new.  Back when I was young and restless and never satisfied with anything. When I was hungry for life.  When I wanted love and adventure and my whole life was ahead of me.  Has it really been 15 years since I graduated high school?  Do I really have a 13-year-old child?  When did I become this responsible adult?

I want to speed down the back roads blaring Pearl Jam and Better Than Ezra and Soundgarden and The Toadies and scream at the stars.  I want to feel the wind in my hair and KNOW that the world is a great place and that there was nothing that I could not do.

I miss that girl.

If you see her, will you tell her to put on a jacket, wear a longer skirt and not to stay out too late?